“You are not the person I married”. I had heard my ex husband say this to me a few times in our 17 years of marriage. On one particular occasion I replied “I sure hope I’m not. I don’t want to be the person I was at age 23 when I am 39 years old”.
My 23 year old self had never experienced being a mom. My 23 year old self had never experienced worrying about paying bills each month. My 23 year old self had never experienced being in an unfaithful marriage. My 23 year old self had never had a “grown up” job.
Some of those things would soften my heart and some would toughen me up. Some would make me more responsible and some would make me wiser.
Also, let me be honest, the world would not be here if I had kept using the amount of hairspray all of these years, that I did when I was 23 years old.
I didn’t believe I was a bad person at age 23, but I sure hoped that I had matured and learned a few things in 16 years. I can not imagine a life where you stop learning and growing.
Do you ever plant a seed hoping that it just stays a seed? No! You want it to grow to be big, strong, and have fruit or flowers in abundance.
Do you want your child to stop learning and growing taller after they finish Kindergarten? I sure hope not. You should want them to grow taller and stronger. Hopefully you want them to keep learning and be the best they can be.
Why should that be different for us as adults? Why should we be content to just breathe in and breathe out?
I never want to be the same person I was a year ago. I want to learn something new. I want to grow my relationship with God. I want to grow my relationship with my husband and kids. I want my body to be stronger. I want to do something I have never done before.
Next year, I want to be able to say that I am a better person than I am today.